yap

  a bit of a rabble, none of this is really coherent im just yappin

not a long post but i am basically a bum whos empty inside

of course im not the most open person when it comes to expressing my feelings but it is what it is

i dont have any real dreams or goals at the moment

i know i have friends and family supporting me but a lot of the time i still feel alone, partly due to the fact that i haven't really made friends since moving back to dallas post-covid

most of my communication is to people online and while thats ok i still feel lonely

i thought about seeking a relationship but im kinda a bum rn and i feel like im not good enough for anyone

the only thing i can do is try my best and hope i can change but that might take awhile

nothing feels particularly fulfilling but the only thing i can do is keep moving forward and i cant quit because i have people counting on me

i wish i was rich, i know money doesn't buy you happiness but it would at least relieve like, a good chunk of my worries

it is what it is

maybe after i finally graduate and get a job things will be different

but for now i will try to start to change >_<

im not suicidal so you dont have to worry about that im just ranting

tldr
no hopes no dreams no ambitions
no job no career no income no future

no bitches no friends (near me)

 

if you read all of this thanks for reading